~photography101~

The very first photo I developed and printed is here!!! Of course with Manong Manny’s assistance…he’s the best! It really felt good to be able to produce such contact print, and 3 photos… so promising! Hehehe. I really can’t describe the feeling especially when the image slowly comes out as I soak it in the fixer! Wow…such a great achievement! Photography is the best! Though there were hindrances before I came out with those photos, still hope was there! Thanks to my neyney’s SLR camera. Mwuah! Looking forward to making my first sepia print!! Watch out for it!

~A simple and peaceful day~

simple and peaceful day it was! I’ve always loved the rain…I don’t know why, probably it’s because I was born during this season, but what I really know is that I love it when the rain pours while I am left at home, eating or drinking anything hot, most especially when you are with someone you really love. What a sense of satisfaction. What a relief after a tiring day. it's all about havin' what you've long waited for.

Happy Thoughts...ain't it??

Think of happy thoughts…that is what peter pan told Wendy for her to be able to fly… *sigh* if only I could do that… well, maybe in some ways I could. I couldn’t fly, but I could think of happy thoughts and it’s as good as flying. It’s been quite a while since I gathered my thoughts again. Having experienced 3 days and 2 nights of leadership Training at Laguna, I guess, it made me apprehend some things in my life per se. one, that there are a lot of things to be thankful for, my family, my loved one, my friends and all the people that surrounds me. My environment as well is something to be thankful for. I have my pet dogs which I could cuddle and play with after a tiring day, with that look in their face as if they are asking me how my day was and begging me to play with them, so sweet. Those are only some of the things I should be thankful for. Second, that sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there, to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson, or help you figure out who you are, or who you want to become. You never know who this people may be, but when you lock eyes with them, you’ll know at that very moment that they will affect your life in some profound way. And sometimes things happen to you that may seem horrible, painful and unfair at first, but in reflection, you’ll find that without overcoming these obstacles, you will never have realized your potential, strength, and will power of heart. Third, and hopefully not the last lesson in my life is that “everything happens for a reason”. Nothing happens by chance or by means of good luck. Injury, illness, love, lost moments of true greatness and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of your soul. Without these small tests, whatever they may be, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere. It would be safe and comfortable but dull and utterly pointless. There will be no ending in the school called life, so here’s what I’m going to leave out for you, learn a lesson in life each day that you live.

~Kumbaya~

A great and exhilarating leadership training it was…I earned new friends and new skills as well..hehe…kumbaya everyone!!! watch out for the greatest story ever told...

make up for busy days...sleep and sleep and sleep....leaderster is the best!!!

One Fine Day

I bought myself three tops tops today, well it was actually my mother's money, you know the deal... so, two pretty "pa-girl" pink blouses, one chosen by my mom amd the other, of course, the "so dottie" style, and a simple round-neck shirt...i guess those were just some of the consolations that i got for having a couple of "not-so-good" days. Well, i guess it paid off anyway...now i just have to let this out of me...people do make mistakes which we must forgive, and if they don't realize their faults right away, worry not, for somewhere along their busy lives, something or someone will make them see their shortcomings in the past. there are also some fortunate poeple who realizes things before it's too late, and when you see their effort to change, but you cannot forgive, at the end of the day, it becomes your own shortcoming and incapacity. You will end up carrying all the burdens and he is the one relieved of the sin. Now, that took a lot of guts...whew!

All the wonders you seek are within yourself...

Grasp this...

I’ve read an inspiring quote that goes…

“When you deal with mean and hurtful people, just think of them as sandpaper. They may rub and scratch you painfully, but eventually, you’ll end up smoother and polished.”

truly, it serves as a great lesson for everyone…there are a lot of egocentric people who’ll try to mock you just to please themselves…just for the sake of being able to mock you without you mocking them in return… it sounds funny how after a while I’ve come up to this post…I’ve been wondering what to post this weekend, since the class just ended, I thought of updating this with the happenings during the past weeks that I was not able to place anything, but then I realized, I’ll do that some other time… so what right?? Well, I have been so busy that I wasn’t able to succumb my thoughts for a while… same thoughts…same ground…I’m on the same level…I haven’t even stepped a single step higher…well, let’s do it now…it must have been worst if I would not be able to articulate more on this…PEOPLE… no, not the song, damn…I’ve been uttering these words to myself lately, have I become narcissistic or have I lost my self esteem… nah!!! None of the two…hehe…funny…there are people who cannot comprehend on things, so they end up commenting to death just to hide their incapability to grasp... well, what can I do… so, I haven’t been reading lately, and should I say I haven’t really been feeling anything, if you know what I mean… my hypothalamus says nothing… my thoughts are numb…haha…can’t think of anything more, but to hoot… basically, this does not go for anyone, but me…unless you have the same ground as I am…well, people differ, and so do we… we might be having the same view on some things, but that does not mean we’re no different from each other…whoa…done!

"Praise and Mockery are actually the same, it's just a matter of treating mockery as something that would uplift your spirit instead of something that would put you down..." -dottie

The cute kid Tolits...

Gemini by Sponge Cola

Come a little closer
Flicker in flight
We’ll have about an inch space
But I’m here I can breathe in
What you breathe out


Let me now if I’m doing this right
Let me know if my grip’s too tight
Let me know if I can stay all of my life
Let me know if dreams can come true
Let me know if this one’s yours too

Cause I can see it
And I feel it
Right here
And I feel you right here

The vacuous right
Steps aside to give meaning
To Gemini’s dreaming
The moon on its back
And the seemingly
Violated room lit
By the same star

And I feel it right here
And I feel you right here

In a Subtle Way

Is there a mark of sadness in my smile??? Of course there’s none... All is lucid…they’re right in front of me…the blissful things I got to enjoy are here… funny how it seems that there are people who can’t notice the simplest things in life are there for us to enjoy…It’s so amusing how God makes a way for everything, yet not everyone appreciates it. The world pushes us to go beyond our capacities, but do we really know when to stop, when to know if we’ve done enough and when to admit that greediness and pride has taken over our soul??? Some knows for the fact when to draw the line, but how about the people who don’t? They seem hopeless and dissatisfied…and it’s too late to realize the time they’ve lost. How do they catch up? That’s where God regains control…a divine intervention which no one notices, but Him…BUT it is something not to be abused. People like Morrie, in its true sense, are lucky to be able to see life in a different sense. To be able to speak freely without holding back, and not to mention that just about everything he said are full of life’s greatest lessons… There are people like him living in futile; ironically, he treated it as a gift, of being able to prepare himself and the people around him for his awaiting turn over. Somehow, it is a great paradigm of a life lived to the fullest. Truly, he knew how to do that not having to cross the border line. I wish more people could do that. It has a great sense of captivity when you see the radiance in people’s faces…It’s like knowing that HE’s there, the divine and loving spirit we all knew, but only a few have believed in.

For a peaceful life: Remove worries from your head, remove hatred from your heart, live simply, expect less, give more, and have a DEEP relationship with God...

We should realize...

"Devote yourself to loving others, devote yourself to your community, and devote yourself to creating something that gives you purpose and meaning..."

Tuesdays with Morrie

>>>>>>>>>>>>

"The loudest shout is silence..."

_Daredevil_

The ultimate test of friendship because we thought it was the last moment of our lives...Ü It was fun and exciting though. Actually, I have already tried it last year during the college week, it was so different other than of the event, being there for the 2nd and 3rd time made me enjoy it more. During the first time I rappelled, all I felt was nervousness and fear..hekhek..It was a good thing i got the guts to do it again (feeling more experienced than anyone..hekhek)...absolutely a must-see act of mine...(with my best dudettes of course..Jo Ann and Tin) definitely, we're gonna try it once more next year...wish us luck...ÜÜÜ



~The Daredevil Dudettes!!!~

"Tuesdays with Morrie"

One of the most inspiring books I have read...a true remarkable story of two people who seemed to have no time to waste. Something like this would have been a great way to let people understand the true meaning of life and its greatest lesson...Personally, I have been fortunate to be one of the people to be touched by this true story. I seemed to have a wider sense of communicating with people now and I would rather do something a little worthwhile than to have not done anything at all... I love this book and I love the characters in it. It doesn't talk about love that much, but still it captured my feelings and got me to read it all throughout the day... A wonderful story such as this shouldn't be missed...

“Do the kinds of things that come from the heart. When you do, you won't be dissatisfied, you won't be envious, and you won't be longing for somebody else's things. On the contrary, you will be overwhelmed with what comes back...” -Morrie

~My, Tropa, my Family, Whichever you prefer...~

~High School Days are over, but the friendship and the camaraderie remains~ Miss yah guys!!!

mah bebeh Pie...cutie

~a puppy by my side keeps my heart go beating despite the burdens I have in life...~

~The Coke Song~(radio edit)

sana'y masabi sa awit kong ito
lahat ng ninanais nitong puso ko
sana saan man patungo sa buhay
may pag-ibig may pag-asa may saya at saysay
sana sa bawat sandali matikman pa
sarap ng pagsasama at simpleng ligaya….

Sana bawat araw laging may saya
Laging may ngiti
Laging kasama ka
(Sana) kasama ka sa saya ng buhay
kasama ka’t kahawak ang kamay
at sa bawat ngiti
sana’y marinig mo
pag magkasama
isang awit ng puso
sana sa bawat sandali matikman pa
sarap ng pagsasama at simpleng ligaya
tara na! sakyan lang
malay mo…
anjan lng anjan lng ang hinahanap mo
anjan lng anjan lng
ang hinahanap mo…

Life's Greatest Lesson...

"The culture we have does not make people feel good about themselves. And you have to be strong enough to say if the culture doesn't work, don't buy it." -Morrie

~An Accolade to Pinoy Bands~

This is something I had in mind, a feeling, a thought, or sort of something similar to it.It is somewhat being proud for the overflowing success of what we now pertain to as "Pinoy Bands". Having interviewed several of them, their triumph is something to be truly honored, though not really being a part of their circle of profound discoverers, feeling the sense of completion is what I, and many like me possess. At first I felt a selfish manner of not being happy for my newly discovered artists, thanks to a few close friends, gone popular. With this I uttered to myself, I should be feeling lucky for being one of the fortunate people who were able to spot them the first time. I remembered when my friend gave me a copy of a song which was revived by a rarely recognized band, I loved it and since then, we were "crazy" for the band, we even had pinoy bands as our project in which we personally interviewed some of the known and underground bands in the music industry. My circle of friends started singing our theme song and nobody recognized it and in fact, nobody really took that song and instilled it in their minds. I let some of my childhood friends hear the song and some classmates too, because I really enjoyed listening to it. After the semester, we were astonished for hearing some block mates singing that particular song which nobody knew, at least we thought so. Then we realized that the band was getting famous and everyone loved them, we felt bad, we thought the band was for us alone to experience, egotistical, but true. Soon every television set and "gigs" spelled out the name of the bands which we liked so much. And now I was thinking, was it really fair for those bands to have listeners like us? Feeling sorry for they are getting famous?? I think it's not, and so now I can truly say, without any hesitation, that I am swollen with pride for being one of the people listening to these bands and for being one of the people who influenced other people to support these artists commonly known as "Pinoy Bands". Let us continue this great achievement and hopefully, someday, I will have more right in saying I am proud of "Pinoy Bands".

_At the Concert_

It was quite a night...all the hassles and dazzles before finally having the decision to come...but it was all worth it...a funny experience...hehe...kithchie's so great and rivermaya for the 2nd time...is still is the band we all love to jam with...i was with my high school friends..tropa for life... i really missed hanging out with them...haaaaay...i wish the high school days would be back even for just a while...ahuhu...anyway...it's all about having fun...i regret not being able to watch bamboo...sigh...still i know there will be another chance...it might be better...hehe...pinoy bands really rocks!!! i love pinoy bands!!!!i'm quite excited for the upcoming concert of kitchie nadal at st.Paul...it will be cool, i bet!!!Ü i love bands...i love bands...i really doooooo!!!
(below is my ~~NGARAG~~ picture with Rico from the first time i watched their concert at Libis)



~Rock Rulez!!!~

~From a Genuis' Mind~

"If it is a disgrace to a man when he cannot defend himself in a bodily way, it would be odd not to think him disgraced when he cannot defend himself with reason... Reason is more distinctive of man than is bodily effort."
-Aristotle

Bewildering Seventeen

It's a special day...might have been, but,
maybe we can consider it as one anyway...it's no secret to
those who know me very well...probably they are all wondering
if we are celebrating right now... I don't know...persistently,
he's working it out, but it's not official anyway...
I don't really know how to treat this day...I’m still bent...
guilty of having twist and turn in my healing heart...
sigh...after almost four months of trying to forget...
and then came another four months of making me feel
the same way... I’m still in the state of concussion...waaaaaah...
and I guess in this impaired condition of mine,
nobody can really help, but myself...
when you spend a lot of time together…seems like nothing’s change,
but when reality bites…you’ll find your bewildered spirit still searching…
for nothing actually…
every now and then you try to ask… “Is this really precise…I mean, everything…?”
you’ll try to remember when this day still matter…so much…
it does matter now, but not as how it did before…
he tried…and still is trying…
you’re helping, but it seems to give no change at all…
maybe…not now…


“It is true that we don’t know what we want until we lose it, but it’s also true that we don’t know what we’ve been waiting for until it arrives.”

When Lunatics Attack

This is about a "GUY" who just can't seem to do anything right but to mock people...poor guy...

When some people just can't do anything with their lives, you can't stop them,instead, just let them burn their asses into mocking you 'til they get tired of not having any reactions from you other than"for them to burn in hell"... well I guess you need not tell them either 'coz at that very moment of making the biggest mistake in their lives, the heavens rejoices for you...and as for them...Hell opens as demons prepare their coming..Sorry for them, but good is at your side...It's just comparable to the saying... "You lift your life up when you lift other people up; consequently, you put your life down when you put other people down" okay so...they just put their lives down...and pulled me up...gee.. Thanks! Life really gets miserable at times, but there are still some people who are adamant enough to remain untouched by unworthy ridicules. Good for us...huh!

Only fools go where wise man fear to tread...

A Week Ago...

Whew! At last the midterm was over, but I guess it was just a start of more tribulations...My week…

"Monday: studio tour at ABS-CBN and MTB(ang saya saya!) hehe...saya nga wish ko lng I was not worrying about my test for the following day...It would've been better..hehehe

"Tuesday: 1st day of our midterm examinations, Fil. 2 and Rel. Ed.(Mamuyac & Tamayo…hehe)

"Wednesday: Intro. To Broadcasting (Atty. Dela Vega), Humanities (Infante) and Phil. Lit.(Alamo)…if only these subjects weren't scheduled at the same day...sigh...they all required a lot of memorization...haha...it was easier said than done...sa ulyanin tulad ko..hehe..joke..of course all my attention was drawn into my major subject..\hehe..e mas mahirap pa pala ung subject na hindi ko inaral...nyhahaha...honga nman as the saying goes... "walang madali sa hindi nag-aral..." nyahaha...and vice versa…

"Thursday: Retorika (Tiongson)..aha special! The only subject for that day..2-4 pa..\Imagine! mas mahaba pa yung byahe ko sa time na ngsagot ako..hehe..still, her test required a heavy ink ballpen..hehe..

"Friday: Human Bio. And Computer (Cielo and Tanos) uy bagay...hala! sana lng dba..my diskette was not as stubborn as me..heheIt was a fine week, but I still can't figure out why I'm not so pleased with my performance..hehe..aminado kasi na hindi ako nag-aral..hehe.. my obdurate side took over me..sigh..as students always say.. "bawi nlng sa finals…nyahaha"

And finally, we talked about our theater this summer..speaking about vacation…looks like it would be out of our lexicon for now..wawa..Hmmmm...going Broadway this year..just watch for it...I really hope it would be something to blow your horn away..hehe..that's it..

Remember the three R's, "Respect for self, Respect for others, and Responsibility for every action"

A Short Stop...

Sometimes people leads things to the worst though it can be very simple. I just had a thought about how people tend to embellish things which can be annoying or can lead to the distress of someone. I wonder how people with unclean conscience live in this unclean world...i guess no matter how unclean the people and this world can be, thay are still the people whom we'll never know when to encounter and it is still the world where we wake up every morning...and that's how life gets more exciting...it's the thought that you might die tomorrow or if fate is at your side, you might as well win a lottery...as simple as it is...life's challenges can either destroy you or make you situate more firmly than before, as I always say, it is how we handle things and not let these handle us...I guess I am still confident to say that with these words, i am illuminated and so is my character...


"Distractions and inspiration are the same, only that the immature are distracted and the mature are inspired"

...

Same Ground
by: Kitchie Nadal

*My love
It's been a long time since i cried
And left you out of the blue
It's hard
Leaving you the way
When i never really wanted toSelf denialIs a game so strange i never really should've wanted
Til there was you
Cause i have learned that love was beyond
What human can imagine
More it clears
The more i gotta let you go

**'cause what i don't understandIs why i'm feeling so bad now
When i know it was my idea
I could've just denied the truth and lied
Now why am i the only one standing stranded
On the same ground

*

Self denial

Is a game so strange i never really should've wanted
Til there was you
Cause i have learned that love
Is a word just thrown
A litlle bit too much of this
Excuse to fill this infinite of desire
And nevere ever have to fade

**

If all else fail
Would you be there to love me?
When all else fails
Would you be brave to see right through me?

Midterms!!!!~Audio Console~Yipeeee

sigh...it's already midterms, more studying time is needed...argh!!! on the lighter side, wow!! i was so touched with my classmates' comments 'bout my on board practical exam....hehe...thanks classmates for giving me positive comments...hehe...natapos din ung nervousness and all...haaaaay...well, it was the best feeling ever... the fact that you're there inside the booth, in front of the audio console, as if you're a true Disc Jock...haaaaay...ang saya!!! it's really fun...and the real funny thing is, we all got the grade we deserved, i'm sure the proffesor was pleased with us, sa comments ba nman nya...astig tlaga our section...hehe...mga talentado...hehehe...well, anyway, for those who haven't been called yet, at least they have more time to practice, but they have to show more effort...i believe so that they'll do better...ang saya ta;ga...Congratulations ab-2a and goodluck to the people who would be taking the test...whew!!! Goodluck sa midterms...written exam naman...sus...peanuts!!!CA pa...it's great feeling this way!!!!!Ü
~the peepz I'm greatful for having a wonderful college life~

~The Coke Song~

sana'y masabi sa awit kong ito
lahat ng ninanais nitong puso ko
sana saan man patungo sa buhay
may pag-ibig, may pag-asa, may saya at saysay
sana sa bawat sandali matikman pa
sarap ng pagsasama at simpleng ligaya
tara na sakyan lang...
malay mo....
anjan lng anjan lang
ang hinahanap mo...


~sing it with me~

Weeeeeeeeee....

back to school..hehe...but actually sa sobrang sipag ko pi\umasok ako yesterday though wla pasok..hehe..naddah..i just practiced my songs in the audio board.....weeeeee i'm a DJ....hehe...well, it's nice havin' experienced so many things being a comm arts student...hehe...ang saya tlga...i remember the days when we were having our interviews with different bands and DJs, haaaaaaaaay...sa GMA pa...ang saya tlga ng feeling that maybe one day, i would be working in line with media...hopefully, if i behave during the remaining years of my college life...may mga pe\roblems na pro go prin...la lng...it's fun tlga being here and being happy, though alam mo na there are struggles that you might face...basta carry lng dba dude?? hehe...i've missed my buddies...yoh mga dudettes...though d msyado good ung start ng year, but still it pays off pag di ka na papatol sa mga taong binaon mo na sa limot...haaaaaay...harsh is harsh, pero sa right time, minsan kc di worthy ung isang taong awayin lalo na that you know na walang kalaban-laban...at least i've proven my formality in handling things,..happy ako...thanks nga pla sa concerned friends and for all your efforts of making me happy everyday..hehe...well...see you around and watch out for a new DJ...nyahahahaha...hala baka bumagsak ako sa practical, sana wlang feedback ung presentation ko..nyahahha...buti nlng ndi tumatalon yung cds ko...hehe..tata...mwuah mwuah friends...Ü

Happy? new year???

sigh...just read a msg from a girl whom i used to know..ewan...kainis, ipagpilitan ba daw na i intentionally sent a msg to her twice...e yung msg nya sakin twice din na-snd...haaaaaaaaay...there are just people who can't seem to satisfy their fantasies...hhehehe...affected prin pla cya...i almost forgot na nga na frnd ko pla cya...tsk tsk tsk...such a waste of time..i just can't seem to find my bad side para isumbat lahat ng ginawa nya sakin...for being a traitor and etc...haaaaaaay...haaaaaaaay....kung di lng new yr...and kung di lng ako tinotopak...!!!

~A Brand New Start~

it's another chance for us to improve and maybe to correct the wrong things we've done in the past year...i hope we would take this opportunity and let us not wait for the time when we no longer have the chance we need. I hope for this year, not only for myself,but for everyone to achieve the sense of fullfillment and inner peace...personally, i think it's important to have an inner peace, amidst all the struggles we all encounter, let us not loose hope for a brand new day...what we don't know is that day might come and we might not notice it...A properous new year to everyone...i love you all!!!